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I sold one of my bookcases today. I bought it years ago in Sacramento and it has been in four apartments and two cities. I also got a hit on my digital camera. Craigslist is great.

The buyer showed up with her boyfriend and as she looked at it in my bedroom, she seemed to be having second thoughts about whether she wanted it. I told her she did and dropped the price by $10 to make up for the two missing pegs. I would make a terrible salesperson. The three of us had a little bit of a conversation, and I found out she’s in law school, and that her boyfriend has relatives who live in Sydney.

To help seal the deal I offered her some books that were sitting in boxes in the living room. She didn’t want them at first, until her boyfriend noticed a copy of Nigger by Dick Gregory. Yeah, that’s what I thought. How about you look through the rest of them? And I watched as The Slave Trade, Assata, Juneteenth, Drylongso, Go Tell It On The Mountain, and Tar Baby flew out of the boxes one after the other. (But they left the hard-cover Norton Anthology of the complete works of Shakespeare! Who does that?) Read More

On this very festive (and way too loud) of holidays, I decided to see Fahrenheit 9/11. Actually, I didn’t decide to. I was more so reverse-psychologized into it. Whatever it takes.

Going into the film, I had read an article by Christopher Hitchens called Unfairenheit 9/11: The lies of Michael Moore. Some may remember that Mr. Hitchens team-taught my writing class last fall with Melissa. I heard a lot of things about him before the class started, but despite all claims of his arrogant conservatism, I ended up liking him. The smoke breaks he insisted on helped, of course. And I even had the opportunity to discuss George Eliot with him over a clove at a swanky bar, atop an equally swanky hotel, that sold $8 beers.

The discussion was short, though, because that idiot I called Squeaky was unable to extract himself from Hitchens’ ass and felt compelled to enter the conversation with an Eliot question. Whatever, dude. I went back inside.

So this article is really long, unnecessarily long, and it’s a rather scathing criticism of the film, something suggested plainly by the title. He goes off on Moore’s ‘twisting’ of facts and claims the existence of irresponsible documentary filmmaking. I’m willing to admit that I believe all media is bad. We hear what we want to; and most defer to the outlets that will tell us what we want to hear.

And I’ll even admit that, as I was watching the film, I could see what Hitchens objected to so vehemently. Moore weaves the evidence he discovered into a package replete with comical uses of music and subtle vocal intonations in his commentary. But that’s what a filmmaker is supposed to do. It’s what a writer is supposed to do with words. A musician with music.

They have stories to tell, points to make. So if I was conservative, I’d be pissed, too. But I probably wouldn’t write such a verbose article that gets off topic a little too much. The bottom line is that the movie is good. Why people voted for this man, I don’t know. Why people are considering voting for him in November is beyond me.

As is my love affair with Henry Miller. Well, his writing. I was nearing the end of Freud (for now) and needed a new book. Of course there are plenty on my shelves that I haven’t read, but none interested me. So I went and picked up Miller’s Sexus. I think this Henry Miller thing is what’s going to get me off my ass to write. He was a good writer who was plagued with insecurity, something that, I hear, is woven into his texts. For that reason, it will be interesting to see how I react to it and where I go with it.

My three-day weekend is almost over; but I had a really good one. Taylor Mead was at the Bowery Poetry Club on Friday night. He was followed by an idiot “comic poet” who wish he “had my voice in bed.” The 105 minutes he was onstage was way too long and his pants were way too tight. Ginger’s is always good (in the right company). And well, hopefully tomorrow I’ll do some writing, now that I have found my software. I excavated my closet and finally found it, as well as every journal I’ve ever kept. Have you ever gone back to read what you wrote in high school. I highly suggest it. It makes you thankful you’re almost 31.

After sleeping late and lounging in the heat of my house, Mary and I finally ventured into Manhattan.

Bless her heart for not wanting to see the “touristy” things. That’s never been my thing. So instead, our first stop of the day was the most wonderful store I think I’ve ever stepped foot into: The NBA Store on 5th Ave and 52nd St. Unfortunately for me, it’s a quick subway trip from my house. I came pretty close to asking for a job application, but I have a feeling I wouldn’t bring any money home.

So the first thing I saw when I walked in was the Spurs championship gear. Now, I should say that what prompted this last-minute trip was the fact that I noticed some flaws in my new Spurs hat. The elastic underneath the logo on the front is coming through the logo. That’s not cool.

So in the back of my mind, I decided to go to the NBA store in order to look for a sturdier hat, although I still love my new one. Because I got my housing deposit back the other day, I decided to treat myself to something. Something small.  This store is two floors of merchandise from every single team. It really seems like a heaven on earth if there was such a thing. Read More

This word “tumult” popped into my head quite early today. I wish I had known at the time the power it would exert over me throughout the rest of the day. Or, rather, I wish I had known the power I gave it by simply conjuring up its presence in my conscious.

My ego? Help me out, Sigmund. You seem to have hijacked my brain, thereby disallowing me to have a thought without wondering what, exactly, impute. Narcissistic libido, which reverts back to the ego-libido?

First, I briefly looked at some Ph.D. programs. That was a short search. Then I thought about starting a journal. About what? Post stuff. Who knows? It takes money. I don’t have it. I want to make it, though. This is another thing that impeded the journal thought process. Nevertheless, I still could not get it out of my mind. Becoming a little more knowledgeable about Quark with certainly help. As will getting in with the printer I met yesterday. Read More

I just called to get a hair appointment in my old neighborhood (because I haven’t been there enough yet). I haven’t seen Franco in seven weeks and figured it was time. But when I called, I found out the devastating news. He moved back to Spain. Dammit. I have never been in such a hair crisis. I’m supposed to go to this thing tonight at this place called Luxx. It’s got drag kings and girls and blah, blah, blah. I’m actually not in the mood to go. Places like this are always better for me when I have someone “By My Side.” So, um, yeah. I wasn’t too happy with my post yesterday and this one is about to verge on much worse. So I’m gonna get out of it. Will I finish Freud today? Well, I hope so for fuck’s sake. I’ve only got one more essay to read. I’ll find a spot in Manhattan today after I take care of my hair and just read, read, read, and listen to music and write to my heart’s content. By the way, Elzbieta suggested I look at New School’s Ph.D. programs in Philosophy and Political Science….yeah, right.

I had no idea when I moved to New York that I would have so much contact with its police force. You may remember the episode of last December when we were summoned for looking at the water.

Well, tonight, because my week needed to end on such a positive note, I had another one. I went out tonight with Paige and some other people. It was only ok. Paige and I went to dinner (wish I had that money back now; but this is what happens when you finally get your freelance check in the mail — you think you have money) at this Thai place called Long Tan. It’s good. I’m still full and I didn’t even finish the food. After that we went to a bar. It was actually kind of boring but whatever.

Paige wasn’t feeling well so she decided to leave. I left around midnight and walked to the train. This particular platform is outside so I decided that I would smoke while waiting. I took a seat on the ground, which now I can’t believe I did, what with all of the urinator stories I’ve told. And I lit a clove. I even thought to myself, “I don’t think I can do this but I’m going to anyway.”

I even imagined a cop walking up to me. Seriously. Just then, I turned to my right and saw this guy walking rather inconspicuously toward me. He was dressed in shorts and a t-shirt and wearing tennis shoes. He also had headphones on. After scanning his wardrobe, I looked away to see my train approaching. When I turned back, he was closer to me and flashed a badge. I wonder what kind of power one feels while one is flashing a badge. DAMMIT! “You’re not supposed to smoke on the subway platform.” I didn’t know this. I was outside. To no avail. Read More

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